June week 1

EXAM'S ARE OVER!!!! Well, not forever, just for now... But YAY YAY YAY!!! Only those who know me understand how I really feel. My joy is sincere! :-D Seeing that I don't have much things to talk about, I'll stick to recounting the ups and downs during this recent exam. I've got to admit that this time round it's no easy guarantee for anyone including me to say that this exam was just a breeze. No, no. It's not like others so far, a lot tougher and it really pushed us to the limit. It was the first time I forced myself to get up in the wee hours of the morning just after a few hours of sleep so that my body was given little boost for the next long hours of study and exams. I took pity, seeing myself in the worst wearying condition, forcing every last bit of information into my brains. The worst feeling I had was each time I realised that I wouldn't be able finish my revisions before a paper. My heart starts thumping vigorously, my face paled, my feet and hands cold and the most anxious feeling set in, still I tried and tried to continue. Many times I faced a breakdown, mentally and physically. Emotions were quick to creep in and managed to overwhelm my mind. Fear of not making it and fear of not living up to expectations heaped more stress and anxiety in me, eventually took a toll on me. I felt lost and just didn't know what to do anymore. I felt like throwing in the cards. But I'm so grateful to those around me who managed to knock some sense into me. My perceptions of exams were all wrong. It was no point for me to lose my mind and senses over the exams. With that, I slowly picked myself up and moved on without putting any expectations for myself. The real deal has yet to come and when it does come, I should avoid making the same errors again learnt by experience. At the end, I'm  glad that I was able to sit through the exam without much problem. :-) Let me take a nice break now.