March week 4

That feeling of pain

Without a doubt, being in pain is one of the worst feeling for one to go through. I say this with much understanding for I have just recovered from being ill about a week ago. This time it was quite serious and I was really suffering, plus I was more regretful that it had to happen during the recent holidays. Usually I would be down with flu due to lack of water and sleep and often it would make me miserable for one whole day only. I admit that I do have a problem drinking enough every day that might be because of my laziness and lack of foresight about my body conditions. Actually our bodies give us early warning symptoms for us to take careful measures but instead of taking heed, I took the risks and suffered the consequences real badly. It started with soreness when I swallow because of a huge ulcer near my throat, then a fever, flu, cough before subsiding for one day. Then it was Saturday and I had to attend theory driving lessons for 5 hours already feeling lousy and sickly from the start. I knew I was having fever again. I have never felt worse before and miserable in unforgiving conditions at the driving school, very hot outside but cold in the classroom, it was sheer pain as I prayed for the class to end. I tried my best to absorb what I can which is about only 50%. My eyes were watery and red when I got home. I could only imagine my appearance when I was in that class earlier. Anyway, home is the best and I was finally free from that 5 hours of grueling torture. My fever carried on for a few days and I literally experienced blood, sweat and tears. I felt  like I was in bondage, I couldn't carry on with my daily routine and had to forgo outings with my family and I couldn't eat "normal" food. Water, water, water. I had to replenish myself with the many litres of water I had deprived myself during that short span of days. I cried out of frustration for having to suffer so badly especially the pain at the back of my throat that makes eating and drinking a chore and I kept blaming myself for my negligence towards my health. Now, I wonder why I sometimes wished I was sick when I was younger. I now know that it was the stupidest thing to wish for. Being sick is no joke and I speak it with experience. Wishing to be sick so that we can skip school is nothing like what it seems to be but rather going through a time of test not just physically but mentally too as we wait for our bodies to heal and recover so that we won't feel down, oppressed and weak anymore. Be careful for what we wish for. I have learnt my lesson.